Nth much to update but wanna share thiz..
Have fun!!! >:))




Aishah juz appointed me to come up with the bday plans.. Here comes the hair sprays and the flour. I've been wanting to try it on someone XD
Hope the gang will forgive me :XX
Looks like all my day offs will be dedicate for grams if possible
She said if she sleep alone, she normally cant sleep in peace..
Dear grams, stay healthy till we're okay please. x_x

God, i missed the whacko ouran ppl. Its not much about love, i juz love the comedy hehe.

And three cheers to another year of rants to Karm!!!
Ppl make new year resolutions but i have nth much in mind,

Juz wish for a polaroid camera, more money & have more creative dreams when i sleep. :DD

A polaroid camera for camwhoring is damn nice lor. They give the face the extra X factor & u felt it's more significant than those pics u took in digital camera. What do u noe, the oldies have glamour that modern time can't replace. It makes me feel that i should really go to a vinyl record shop. i wanna see the music covers >.<
Yea my friend used polaroid pics for a card for the Emergency Dept.

When it comes to cameras, i believe i have an obsession. T__T

The reason for the recent procastination was tat i wanted to make a 2009 memoir but i don't have the time to nor the motivation for.
Yesh, i realised i'm actually number 6, no matter how many times i count it's still 6 & not life path number 7. dot. dot. dot. Basically, im not interesting D: hahax.

I really liked ED, i loved the workflow & i loved the patients but im not going back there nimore thanx to a certain star buddy. I rather not work under her thank u very much. :XX
Well maybe i aim for SGH hehe. One thing bout ED nurses that i also liked is they get to prepare for mass casualty!!! Also, me hospital gotta helipad!!

U wanna get a best bird-eye view of a city?
A helipad is your answer.

It's so spacious that u can see buildings all around, it's definitely a breathtaking place. It beats the flyer 100 times better & it's FREE!!!! Woot! U get to feel the wind and yesh the sunlight with the view. It's the best rooftop eva! My quest for rooftops is accomplished. :DD

As Pat walk up the grand slope, he announced: Tiz is where i'm gonna have my wedding lolz
True, it definitely would be elegant cept the bride gonna suffer during the wedding march eh? Imagine her veil flying here & there. :PP

For this whole month i went OT & ED specialised posting. I hate OT. Though it's interesting, it always made me sleepy.
ED, when im in resus room it make me pumped up with energy.. i like to be on standby for cases. Woot!
But unfortunately, i did no cpr action and one info nidda be corrected. We, missys don't need to give the kiss of life. We juz put a tube in their mouths and bag. It's for infection control purposes niwayz. Juz hope nobody collapse when im on me way home. Then, i really have to kiss goodbye to my first kiss. T___T

I like the sisters so far. One sister is cool coz she's direct, another one is very motherly hehe. Yea around half of me peeps are applying. :DD
Today was the last day, and i met susu today too.
I slammed myself to a glass door & thank goodness teddybear did not laugh. And yeah she became my human pillow. I realised its damn true that they say pain is minimised with a warm touch. Yea, sorry human pillow but thanx for helping :P

Hmm so no pics today since the 2009 memoir plan is pretty much postponed.

Whatcha get today from me is my lyrics!!
No pics in tiz rant.
And below is a post long ago in jan & for my eyes to see, not urs thank u. Standard karm protocol: Strictly for karm & my future self. :]

I juz learned guitar skills from my uncle.
Basically, my chord progression is still slow
And my plucking is still not good. Yeah, no worries, im practising. I'm so in loved with my guitar that at home i nvr part with it. XDD
Orh yeah tat's why the last blogskin was mainly the guitar & the soul moving onward. Coz spiritually, i'm still stable. God is still me speed dial no. 1. haha.

Recent song created with chords played on me guitar. Juz need 2 more stanzas and ending chorus & im done.. Weeeee!!!
Im not really sure bout a song's body though. I rem playing guitar hero, there's the bridge yada yada @_@.

War
Clad in armor as he goes
She looks at his back in sorrow
Not knowing what holds for tomorrow

You don't know how it feels like
To count every second in her life
For him to come back in her arms

So don't underestimate your moms
Coz they dare to bear the brunt
When their loved ones are gone (2x)

For all the fathers lost in the war
Through the frontlines that they tore
To fight for the peace that they foresaw

She tells 'happily ever afters'
With her children round the hearth
Soon a telegram came for her

You don't know how it feels like
In that cruel state of life
When the weight of the world is on her

For all the mothers, victims of war
Give the love that they deserve
For the goals they had in mind
For the resilience that they find

For all the men that holds the glory
In a battle, it's a different story
They had to brace their fear in their mind
To pluck the courage to be in line

Tiz is 2 days work coz i kept singing the song lol.
But sumwhat now i think it's dedicated to world war II old-timers.
And for my grandma. No, grandpa did not die from a war. BUT he died overseas when grandma was still young & had 6 children to raise. So it's round the same? >.<

Dad always want me to be recognised, me on the other hand don't.
But if there's one day i wanna test my skills,
I will then try to busk somewhere with a disguise in hand hehehe.
But nidda get license from the Arts Council fiz before doing a street performance if im not wrong leh. He wanted me to upload me songs in youtube..And be the next star like Zee Avi. Even if i upload, my songs are not universal, besides it'll be only da ppl i noe. -____-

Talking bout license.. CRAP! I nidda get one for the sake of grandma.
Mom's hunting for jobs but all jobs are cruel for her educational status. There's only one day off per week.
So i guess i should take up the role of driving grams to the market and stuff.

Karm: All the bez girlie, study hard, dun waste money & dun mess up the traffic!
Mars: I'll try >.<





Coz mom currently lives for the sake of us, the children. And i agreed with her on the fact tat used to hurt me.

If i were her at tat very age of 21, I would have refused the proposal & run away. Get a new job, concentrate.. And not care about love for the time being till coast's clear. My uncle who was bent on the arranged marriage was blinded on revenge. Childish, indeed.


















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Post it on your blog!
Name: Mars (Credits to Susu?).
P.S. Do not take this seriously. This is just for fun.
Warning: Do not do it so seriously. It takes the fun out of the application form.

Name: MartianMars
Age: 100yrs0month0days
Gender: F.

What do you do best: Phone tormentor

What do you do worst: I nearly got my phone run over by a car recently..

What is your aim: My aim is to get it spoiled to no return and get a cheapo phone

What have you achieved: I got the phone drowned on the first month (fast progress, eh?)

Why do you think you should be in ClutzClub: It's because my skill for grooming retarded phones is the bez in tiz world

What can you offer for ClutzClub: To destroy ur phones, i'll give special discount for runaways & those who nid to get rid of possessive lovers?

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All this in the name of relieving stress. Don't worry! It's not an actual club! It's all in the name of fun. Please do not start promoting this ClutzClub to other people and get the name around. It'll be too horrid to see the consequences. :)!

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So cheers to those who have nth to do, go join the clutzclub okie? :PP

I was busy rummaging tru my files in word document
AND..
Was shocked by tiz

Your Lucky Number is 7
Yours is the path of the mind. Silence and solitude are your doorways into the deep recesses of the mind and the universe. You are the philosopher, the analyst, the seeker and if you'd be willing, the teacher. The time and energy that you spend discovering the microscopic core of things has gifted you with the ability to tap into psychic energy. It is with this energy that you can separate the true from the false.

There is an air of mystery and secrecy about you. You are poised and sophisticated, and prefer to dress in a clean, well-groomed and understated way. You seem unapproachable to others because of your introspective and analytical temperament. You are the philosophical loner, the probing seeker, and only those of like-mind really understand.

You are a philosopher by nature. Inside, you are calm shy and reserved, preferring to live alone in your own perfect world of thoughts and intuitive analysis of life's deeper mysteries. You experience irritation and upset in noisy or chaotic environments, as your hearing is more sensitive than most peoples. You have a good ear for music and are probably drawn to complex and meditative melodies.

I remember not comprehending this much and it didn't reflect me at tat time.
Now, it does.. Yikes! O.O"
Or is it because i read tiz once.. and so, my subconscious propel my state of mind to tiz?

Or is tiz all coz of James Rollins?! XDD


Mom decide to try security guard for 2 months.. she managed to get the full action of me hospital. Frankly, sometimes i felt tat being a security guard or a driver is not bat at all once u get to rotate to different places each day.
She want to dive in the healthcare line now. I warned her but orh well lets see her perseverance.

I remembered working at the main hospital made me feel squeezed, cramped up and sad.. and now i live my days peacefully at the rehab hospital hahax.

One thing about my room now. We juz bought a new mattress & when the delivery man discard the old mattress, he pointed to Fian tat there were 3 chief bedbugs T_______T
So i goggled up to getting rid of tiz pests coz i dun think tats the end of em.
So how to kill bedbugs protocol.. is to dump everything in tat room with hot water.. if possible, 113 degrees. Tats the optimum extermination. =OO

Tiz is gonna be difficult so dun give ur bags to me. I might infest em with Mars Bedbugs delight *sobz*

To brian - nopez was thinking of talking bout it on the next post though october is like 2 months away now >.<

Anyone having probs with the tagboard?? Rawrs!!
& my comp has died.. lol
& my blogskin is gone!!!!! It was sucha a short love affair! why fedora muz u split us? T__T


Well i repair my blog & update it once i shift to my uncle's house
By 1st december, we shall live in with Wak talib & Aphiz. Tat cousin of mine can be dangerous sometimes, hope Boss will be okay. :S
Give all the love to my lil bro, his holding up on his own veri well :))
He's now on his way of noeing his outcome of psle.. i hope everything would be alright.

I've been working for like 3 weeks now.. Seriously i think soon i'll be a gal who wont really talk much. Coz i dun find things interesting enough to talk bout now. I'd really ace in listening *sigh*.

But, somehow, my job feels very enlightening when i talk to patients. Some of them are very queer ppl which makes them adorably cute. And i'll keep on gushing about how cute they are to myself *repeat the scenes again & again in the brain*

When i pushed an old man into the toilet, i would admire their face and think "Tiz must be a handsome guy in the past"
Yea i got nth better to do so i check out my patients, is tat bad?!
Karm: Nvr let ur grandpas near Mars again *helps to whack Mars forehead*

Lol if u see carefully, with those wrinkles, some features will always stay with em, enduring the age hahax. Peoples' faces as they mature, those wrinkles make em cute juz like the bends of a river; if seen from a bird's eyes view is beautiful.

And these queer people, most of em go into nursing homes.
Do their own family hate their insanity trait of em?? Insanity comes as a parcel of life. I sometimes feel crazy although i only led my life for 19 years. :X
Or are they too busy with their lifes, and forget their parents juz as they forget mother nature. Is self-centredness a neccesity? Discard that black hole attitude! >:((
Well if its financial, get over the problem and don't abandon em forever.

Have u seen the environment of a nursing home? Can u imagine wat's its like to live there everyday. There nids to be a balance of young and old juz like positive & negative..
Some cant ever leave their beds in nursing homes & lying on the bed with no tv.. Nurses too busy with the active ones to make sure they don't fall. Its like a prison lah. Its where u leave ur minds to rot. If they have grandchildren to take care, at least their memories serve purpose but over there, wat is there to live for, please kindly tell me.
Lol, yes i extremely hate nursing homes.

keeps me thinking that it won't do u any good...

Rite now i love this single world is coz of..
} Fear of being vulnerable or hurt
} The independence
} A coward to open up
} Comfortable in tiz environment, resistant to change
} Or like michelle's friend says, "being a lone wolf"
[craving a time of ur own, addicted to loneliness]

I dun think i can ever dislike the single world enough to leave
& grab a companion to traverse life's journey with
So with such incentives for keeping my heart in a strong fortress

If im not careful,

I bet i can degrade
to...

> A self-centred narcissist
> Be bitter to other people
> Shutting myself in as everyone is bound to be busy with their own lives
(Always wonder what'll happen to friends after a few years,
I know we always wish for each other's happiness
but i dun think we have enough time to spend with each other)

> Personality gets twisted & become an inhuman soul

Yea i cant help but feel scared as i see the hero from "he who can't get married"
It's like seeing a possibility of me being like tat in the future T_T

Observing so many examples.. =/
Once u're hurt deeply,
u become extremely cautious &
protective of opening urself up to new people.
Hmm, maybe i should search harder for those who defy tiz nature.

Well looks like this is another part of me i need fix.
Funny thing is u'd find urself so sure of ur strength yourself but
having another person to look at you
allows that deluded confidence to crumble away..

So i guess im suppose to be desperate but why don't i feel desperate already ._.
I think its better to be a despo, i mean sure u make mistakes but it allows time for u to grow..

Eddy bro gave me a good insight haiz..
but i think maybe i might miss & miss again to follow such insight when given the time T_T
Like a song u can't get it right, will the Conductor be patient enough to wait & repeat or
the baton stroke on & i'll be ignored..

Submerged in that one part of the symphony,
though obviously, everyone else is moving on along with the tune.
After all, life may not give second chances to certain people.




(Lol yupz, lil bro & mom at the causeway.. adik was busy shooting as always)

Karm: U have issues
Me: Shaddap! i need some drama for meself :OO

Mars

Ngee Ann

Nicknames: Nodame, Mama, Ina & Maru-maru (credited to Sap recently) XD

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