[[*Endless Road_______Endless Journey]]*

Sunday, August 2, 2009

[[Sorry...]]

For being evil! wahahaha!

You know wat, i'm happy that friends appreciated my company..
I thank u, deeply from the bottom of my heart for having fun with me!
Coz inside me i could feel my sanity is degenerating. hehe
I realised i seriously nidda hang out with friends to at least unleash my insanity and be back to normal! After 3 weeks of devoting self 'me time'. ;D

Last friday
A recent *touched* moment
I was talking all sorts of stuff with ct..
I was telling her bout my findings of Doomsday hyperly
and she said, "I'm glad that i have a friend like u" ^___^
Well, i confess about being angry at her last phonecall and apologized for the brat me in sec skool.
I did lotsa reflecting? XD

I told her that i don't mind dying right now though it would be sad not to see my old face.
Coz there are billions of ppl anyway,
1 person gone would ease the Earth's burden abit.
Ct: Marina, u shouldn't think so insignificantly of urself
*kinda hit me*
Coz i really feel i'm insignificant to myself,
i noe i make an impact on my closed ones
but to myself, i'm just not satisfied LOL

Actually, karm is juz a place where i dump all my disorganised thoughts.
Hell even my songs are pretty much disorganised lol.
Placing chaos in one corner so that i can continue living in order.
Living reality like a dream.
I dun really care if tiz blog is followed by others,
For my eyes truly.

Tiz gal arh,
seem to talk about me alot to others *haiz*
Like how i used to hate people with handsome looks
as i stereotyped them as ppl who are spoilt! XD

And guess unrequited love
cause similar psychological impacts on the brain?
As i am bent on thinking tat i would die a spinster too.
And tat teddybear is starting to think the same way.
Honestly, i wish i'm near him again.
I forgot how much inspiration i get
of wanting to have a similar character like him.
Having him in my thoughts was fun. Hehe.
Though i annoyed him like hell.
I did all my best to have him hate me
as a way of trying to distance myself.
Really tat black lion is strong. To survive such trials. =))

Lol, here goes the 'observer' side of me again.

Teddybear accompanied me to stabilised my huge insane blowout on tuesday.
Of 'probably getting kick out of my course'
As i'm in the 'failed' list of one module *sigh*
Here comes the negotiations..
Crossing my fingers, that i still be inside this slave contract.
Juz 3 more years..
I nid it for the family thank u!
Though i kinda like the idea of being kicked out..
Subconsciously, i'm craving danger.
Karm: Bad mars, bad mars.. wat a masochist!

Amazing.. I dun feel emo but my posts is gradually getting devellishly emo!!
Woo hoo!
Honestly, I'm now thinking of...
I feel like i wanna learn TCM (one of my first ideas-> nurse + herbalist)
or alter my ways to bioengineering
or stray even further to clean energy
ROFL!

Clean energy.. Maybe i get to see volcanoes for trying to make geothermal energy? =DDD
I rem i laughed with susu.. Calling it a retarded course.
Coz it's like hard to work in S'pore?
U muz go overseas fiz and work there
then come back spore to make the changes.. *hmm*
Am i even that hardworking in tiz current state? =/

But i noe i'm planning to change myself.
It's time to shake myself out from the shell. *Here i go*
Well i managed to regain back the feeling of being connected to God! ^^

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|3:14 AM|

[[The Walker]]

Name: Mars
Bdae: 11-12-1990
Nicks: Nodame & many more haha
Skool: None! :P

[[My Adores]]

Food: All kinds of tasty food cept halal pork
Drinks: Milk tea, Coffee, all sorts of tea.. But the best is still Newater :X
Pastimes: Music, Drama & People
People: Erm hang out with Piano, susu, ct, modoki & mokona

[[My Detests]]

People: used to hate all men cept my brothers hahah. Now im enlighthened! X)
Things: POOP! Snails *shiver*
Food: Chaltar food.. Culprit is always me >.<

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