keeps me thinking that it won't do u any good...
Rite now i love this single world is coz of..
} Fear of being vulnerable or hurt
} The independence
} A coward to open up
} Comfortable in tiz environment, resistant to change
} Or like michelle's friend says, "being a lone wolf"
[craving a time of ur own, addicted to loneliness]
I dun think i can ever dislike the single world enough to leave
& grab a companion to traverse life's journey with
So with such incentives for keeping my heart in a strong fortress
If im not careful,
I bet i can degrade
to...
> A self-centred narcissist
> Be bitter to other people
> Shutting myself in as everyone is bound to be busy with their own lives
(Always wonder what'll happen to friends after a few years,
I know we always wish for each other's happiness
but i dun think we have enough time to spend with each other)
> Personality gets twisted & become an inhuman soul
Yea i cant help but feel scared as i see the hero from "he who can't get married"
It's like seeing a possibility of me being like tat in the future T_T
Observing so many examples.. =/
Once u're hurt deeply,
u become extremely cautious &
protective of opening urself up to new people.
Hmm, maybe i should search harder for those who defy tiz nature.
Well looks like this is another part of me i need fix.
Funny thing is u'd find urself so sure of ur strength yourself but
having another person to look at you
allows that deluded confidence to crumble away..
So i guess im suppose to be desperate but why don't i feel desperate already ._.
I think its better to be a despo, i mean sure u make mistakes but it allows time for u to grow..
Eddy bro gave me a good insight haiz..
but i think maybe i might miss & miss again to follow such insight when given the time T_T
Like a song u can't get it right, will the Conductor be patient enough to wait & repeat or
the baton stroke on & i'll be ignored..
Submerged in that one part of the symphony,
though obviously, everyone else is moving on along with the tune.
After all, life may not give second chances to certain people.(Lol yupz, lil bro & mom at the causeway.. adik was busy shooting as always)
Let's continue walking on to whatever oblivion light has to give,
Who asked us to be attracted to it in the first place?
Karm: U have issues
Me: Shaddap! i need some drama for meself :OO
Name: Mars
Bdae: 11-12-1990
Nicks: Nodame & many more haha
Skool: None! :P
[[My Adores]]
Food: All kinds of tasty food cept halal pork
Drinks: Milk tea, Coffee, all sorts of tea.. But the best is still Newater :X
Pastimes: Music, Drama & People
People: Erm hang out with Piano, susu, ct, modoki & mokona
[[My Detests]]
People: used to hate all men cept my brothers hahah. Now im enlighthened! X)
Things: POOP! Snails *shiver*
Food: Chaltar food.. Culprit is always me >.<
[[Music's Playing]]
[[My History]]
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[[The Conversations]]
[[my stars]]
