There's some sort of virus lurking in here :(( I realised that i now rock on shooting games, been playing halo lol. Gene's bday/bbq which was at august.. man i came realli late thanx to someone *whistles* Gene's aunt was very nice to the latecomers *yea, confesses it hit on my conscience* Sumwat i want bbq food now again lol. And i just ate at annabelle's bday party last week. I'm becoming a buta or a pandi = >: (:) [does tat look like a pig?] At the end of the day.. I didn't change my clothes tat was wet after playing with water. Nvr thought i would feel it till i ride the train to lakeside. Boy, was the ride back to ct's house a freezing torture. Hey hey.. U should noe wat's tiz nerdish & antisocial freak is doing now rite? :PP
Yea reading about human DNA "Divine code of life" by Kurakami.Juz borrowed another book of quantum.. I find tat the more i read it, how the universe works subatomically the more i get excited. :DD
By reading quantum, i realised the universe was created under precised conditions. Thanks to Davis & Gibbing who wrote "The Matter Myth".
Honestly, i have a thing for space from childhood times. XDD
Oh yeah bout the DNA,
Juz noe that the genes u inherit from ur parents can be altered.
Dun think, "Ah.. Coz my dad had diabetes, im gonna have it"
That'll increase ur chances of getting it.
Wouldn't it be better if u fight with valiance
by believing that u won't have that disease.
A recent study found that laughter could
decrease glucose level in type 2 diabetes.. living happily and strong faith are big. Sometimes the result might be depressing but at least u tried ur best in every way possible kaiz?
James rollins had turned me out into a science geek.. >.< Lil bro has been conquering the computer for video editing.. Thus the sista is getting more hikkomori. Well my phone receives smses hours later which makes it damn difficult to contact ppl whom i missed.. I really have difficulty smsing karopi ToT
Warning: A jap song! Yea thanks to ookiku furikabutte anime.. He wished to join softball and badminton in secondary skool. One thing he have that i don't is his outstanding persistence.. guess tats why he excels in sports & manage to create vids :)
The more i packed away dad's stuff..
The more i see the resemblance of me from him. He also read the quantum books that i borrowed.. when i asked whether my step-bro & sis ever liked such topics, he smiled and said no lol.
Now i know why i have the 'difficult to show love' trait.. dad, dad. I can never say "I love you" without grimacing or becoming stiff. XDD
The books he bought in the past tells it all. He had tis unsatiable thirst of knowledge about learning more about consciousness, God and dreams.. The things that i keep thinking bout now.
Lol there also were books about economics & setting up business, whenever me & mom come across these books, we somehow juz cant help it but scorned at em. We even got to a point by flinging some away. Looks like we can never forget the financial issue, guess coz we are still being plague by it? Forgiven but can never forget haiz.. women. *shakes head*
And wth, he has tons of religous books.. though i used to doubt him being religous. So when packing away dad's books, we go to "fascinated" times to "hating" times to "omgdadreadstiz??!"times. Yea, dad do not express his thoughts, u have to tell him what u're thinking & he will choose to entertain u or not. All in all, he remains reclusive to me from when i was young till now. Education topic is the only thing tat will get him going. =/
been a long time since i write in malay.Sekarang apa yang saya nak sampaikan adalah pasal tentang agamaku. Bila berbual dengan bapaku, aku sedar yang dia masih ada iman tetapi didalm dirinya sahaja. Dia tak tunjuknya secara zahir.. Tak tahulah adakah kerana dia malas ataupun iman di hatinya kuat. Aku berkata pada dia yang aku amat sayang pada buku asma ul husna yang ditulis oleh muhaiyaddeen.. And juz now, when discussing bout how loved late Grandma Timah was.. Dad- Yea, i dun wish to have any illness.. I wish to feel death like how turning off the switch is like Aku- Bapa mesti taubat tau! Bapa- Alah tak payah sembahyang sangat asalkan engkau ingat tuhan di dalam hati.. Aku- Hmm tapi selepas membaca buku muhaiyaddeen tu, saya rasa sembahyang tu perkara yang sangat penting. *memberi buku tu pada bapa* (tak tahulah kalau dapat membantunya kerana itu buku dibeli oleh bapaku dahulu) Mak ku rasa sembahyang itu mengkuatkan iman kerana badan kita berposisi macam huruf bentuk aliff, lam, dhaal, meem. Dari buku tu, ku dapat tau bahwa kita sudah berzikir pada tuhan dengan nafas kita dengan bunyi ha di dalam.. muhaiyiddeen berkata yang huruf-huruf ni kalau dicantumkun bermaksud alhmad - hati yang penuh syukuran. Kaiz sampai setakat ini sajalah. Pergilah cari dan memperoleh buku ini kerana ia telah memberikan ku ransangan yang kuat untuk meneguhkan ibadahku. Tapi baik-baik bila cuba menafsirkan isinya, bawa muhaiyaddeen pun ada beri amaran. Aliff, lam, meem yang terdapat di pembukaan qur' an. Saya selalu tanya ibuku apa maksud huruf-huruf ni. Kenapa mereka ada dipembukaan surah. Mak ku jawab yang dia percaya ucapan itu ada maksud yang mendalam. Dan muhaiyideen ada menjawab soalan ini di dalam buku asma ul husna. Apa yand dia mengajar amat mendalam. Sayangnya aku belum matang lagi untuk memahaminya. Harap dapatlahku faham pada masa akan datang :) As i talked to him about late Grandma Timah, how i felt so sad Dad and she didn't meet on hari raya tiz year. I cried when i heard that she passed away on thursday.. I juz cant understand why dad didnt did his best to visit her, i even psychoed my grandma to come visit her.. But tat plan was abandoned when no one answered the door and we went visiting sumwhere else. He should have called more times, coz I and grandma really wanted to see her. Now i noe why i wanted to see her so much. Well, I nvr saw sumone who loved my dad deeply. When we left her place last year.. she was crying a lot. And the aunt who took care of her, told us tat time that late Grandma Timah keep on asking her about how Dad's doing. She listened to us but couldn't talked as she had lost her voice at tat time. Looking at how she passed away peacefully at home. I cant help but believe she was loved by God. After seeing how she loved dad, hearing her stories on raising him, i started to love her very much too.. Shame she had to leave when dad is still in down times. I wanted her to see dad in his prime & not when we are keeping so many secrets about ourselves.. :/
Anyway thanks to Prof. kurakami and his belief
of the presence of good genes & harmful genes in the genetic code.
I decided to change my pessimism
about my lack of creativity for composing songs
and so today.
I tried activating the 'good' part of the genes. XD
Result is..
'Fight'
Voices crowded my mind
clouds the path i couldn't find
and i lose my way
I figured out what's right
is never what i want
and hey
its never easy
to
Give out a fight
when you don't see the light
of why these things must happen to you
When the future looks bleak
And u lose the will to speak
And that's when.. sorrow finds you
So I..
get a hold of myself with the tears
Played out my choice and fight my fears
Then my strength prevails
to..gether with my peers
This song definitely needs more tweaking especially the lyrics part but it's okay for the first draft rite?? =O
hehe i always have tunes in my head.. problem is always fitting in lyrics to the tune & well continuing the tune. Yea, i ran out of ideas for lyrics.
And my mp3 voice recorder sucks!! I swear hearing it with my earphones was okay but from the comp, it's.. ._.***
OKAY, i admit i have very little talent for composing. I salute those artistes that create their own original compositions.. hahax but i enjoy tiz hobby, no matter how much it will waste my time. =DD
At least i managed to progress further compared to how i fare when i was being an extreme critic of myself. But i keep on wishing i knew how to play guitar. I always imagine my songs with guitar parts.
Well thanx to Fian, i have loads of free time away from the comp anyway. And the me rite now is undergoing a weird transition where i simply hate not doing anything. So juz like me bro.. i still have a long way to go to brush up my skills. XDD
Oh yar & Susu, ur color sense is damn good..
i remember my attachment friends loved the cards & the ribbon alot.
I keep on having to tell them tat they were selected by u lol. Thanx a lotlotlot :DD
And thanx to mokona & shirlyn, i gotta noe that lil bro being crossed-eye is not good..
Complications: Eye strain and headache in the future.
So gonna drag him to the polyclinic for a referral tmr. His eye-condition had worsened dramatically tiz week so i asked mokona and shirlyn bout it today. Yupz met em for my contct lens appointment today.
Good thing is it can be repaired by eye-patching but since lil bro's now old.. the eyepatching process will take very long..
So ppl if u eva have crossed-eyed children.. seek a doctor asap.
He developed it when he was 5 years old
but when i brought it up to Mom & Dad tat time.
They denied vehemently and scolded me for saying such things about my brother.. =_=""
U have no idea how frustated i was with them.
So cross-eyedness is okay, no laser treatment needed, its just patching one eye and training the affected eye muscle kkaiz?
Phew! I finally get out everything from my mind.. I can rest easy XDDMore pics tat i didn't published.. Haiz there's summore pics that i nidda upload before tiz com crash. *feeling insecure*
Dad's wants to put a better graphic card the next time tiz com is sent for repairs. All for the sake of Fian's L4D.
Well if the graphic is good, i'm gonna play 2.. Coz i cant take lagging.
& the pics this round are...
Modoki *danger! danger!*
hehe nice! 
MC has the power of fire *_* 
playing mahjong :PP (Nah they didn't)So we snuck off sumwhere..
Tadaa.. anabelle, fangqi & karti. I nvr thought i could clicked with attachment buddies so well. XDD 
23/10/09
Name: Mars
Bdae: 11-12-1990
Nicks: Nodame & many more haha
Skool: None! :P
[[My Adores]]
Food: All kinds of tasty food cept halal pork
Drinks: Milk tea, Coffee, all sorts of tea.. But the best is still Newater :X
Pastimes: Music, Drama & People
People: Erm hang out with Piano, susu, ct, modoki & mokona
[[My Detests]]
People: used to hate all men cept my brothers hahah. Now im enlighthened! X)
Things: POOP! Snails *shiver*
Food: Chaltar food.. Culprit is always me >.<
[[Music's Playing]]
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